The Love Wins singer admitted she had ‘had enough’ when she worried her fourth pregnancy after having son Isaiah, now five, was also not going to go to term and she was left feeling ‘guilty’ over her frustrations with her faith.
‘I had an honest conversation with God, and I told him how I felt. I was hurt. I was a little angry and, of course, you feel guilty for being mad at your creator,’ Carrie – whose fears were happily unfounded and she gave birth to son Jacob in January 2019 – said as she broke down in tears during episode two of Mike And Carrie: God & Country.
Heartbreak: Carrie Underwood was ‘mad’ at God after suffering three miscarriages. The Love Wins singer admitted she had ‘had enough’ when she worried her fourth pregnancy after having son Isaiah, now five, was also not going to go to term and she was left feeling ‘guilty’ over her frustrations with her faith
‘And I told him we needed something. We needed to have a baby or not, ever, because I couldn’t keep going down that road anymore.
After her second miscarriage, Carrie’s husband Mike Fisher was convinced that she would eventually have another son and they would name him Jacob following his own conversation with God.
He said: ‘What’s the future look like, we don’t know. Are we going to adopt, are we going to… going through things in your mind.
Letting it out: The country singer broke down in tears during episode two of Mike And Carrie: God & Country
‘I was just wrestling and probably the most honest I’d been with God. And I heard, not audibly, but I sensed that God told me that we were going to have a son, and his name’s Jacob.
‘Not much longer, we were pregnant, and we lose another baby,’
The Before He Cheats hitmaker admitted she always thought miscarriages ‘happened to other people’.
So much support: Her husband Mike Fisher said that after the miscarriages they didn’t know what to do. He said: ‘What’s the future look like, we don’t know. Are we going to adopt, are we going to… going through things in your mind’
He got a message of hope: ‘I was just wrestling and probably the most honest I’d been with God. And I heard, not audibly, but I sensed that God told me that we were going to have a son, and his name’s Jacob,’ said Fisher
Carrie – who recently revealed she is working on a full Christmas album – tearfully said: ‘It sounds wrong when you say it. But it’s one of those bad things that happens to other people, you know what I mean? It’s like so many things in the world, it’s not like something you ever envision yourself having to deal with.’
Last week she said on her show that at first was not sure she wanted to have children, admitting that she and Fisher had different ideas about family when they first met.
In the series, Carrie says she never saw herself ‘getting married or having a family,’ while her 39-year-old former hockey player spouse claims that he wanted to replicate his own idyllic childhood.
Getting real: Last week she said on her show that at first was not sure she wanted to have children, admitting that she and Fisher had different ideas about family when they first met
‘I was never good with other people’s kids. Why would I be good with one of my own?’ Carrie, who is now mother to Isaiah, five, and Jacob, 16 months, explained.
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